NO!

Can't get that pair of eyes out of my mind, Oli! I can't. It was exactly the way she looked at me in the HJH interview that morning, like a living person with a dead mind. Her brain has been formulated by all the rules, standards, regulations and disciplines. She can never think out of the box, she can't never live out of the box.
Don't wanna live a life like her, don't wanna have a such a pair of eyes like her. Don't, ever in my life. No!