COOL DOWN

that "once in a life time" thing fails me in the end. sad, disappointed, but still very glad that i've tried, that i had nothing to regret this time, though i am not good enough yet to get what i really want.
but also realized that, this is really an unfair world. sometimes i get the things too easily that i don't feel myself earn them with hard work, but there are also times that i've tried, and get nothing. well then, sort of balance in total, hopefully.
gonna book the flight back to shanghai during the lunar new year tomorrow. cool myself down, get over this thing, and move on.